My Honey Mustard

Two things are infinite:

the universe and human stupidity;

and I'm not sure about the universe.


--Albert Einstein





well said.

It took time to even start moving.
But I think I'm doing good.

I tried to focus on steping up one by one.

Just one step at a time.
Keep telling that it's over.
Keep telling myself that there are things that I can do and would enjoy.
And keep telling myself that it's for both of us.


and day by day, month to month..
I even started not to think about those things.


and I feel that I'm moving on.



I started to feel like it was a good experience.

I've learned something.

We've learned something.



People should experience those things when they are young, especially when we are around early 20s.


so I should say "thank you. and have a happy life"











and smile.











but it still does hurt.


it still gets me.



the music, the cloths, the food, the movies...

and it will happen more when I'm back there.


I just wish that I could cry for hours and get over it.

It's funny that I feel that way because I used to hate crying while I was on a date.


It's my weakness that I cannot cry without him.

and it's my weakness that I still think that way.



I sometimes wish that he was here with me.

but we are immature.
I have somethings that I have to do.
somethings that I have to learn.
and so does he?

Even if we are together right now,
it's not gonna work.

so we ended.
That's what happened.


I shouldnt forget the facts that things have changed since the time we were together back there.
We have changed.






and our feeling have changed.





Though, I still can remember clearly about the days that we were together.
The days that I cried.
The days that we laugh, upset each other, and loved each other.






I'm moving on.

I think I'm doing good.







but I obviously need more time.
and I need more desire to move on.




I haven't cried for almost 3months.

and I wish I could cry.